Change, Change, Change!

It's good.
It's bad.
It's Ugly.
And it's real.

I exchanged all of my change in the bank the other day and received $67.00 in cash. I was proud to finally have the burden of the two massive canisters out of my mind. It was one of the many things weighing on my mind as the Windstream internet installer knocked on the door of my new apartment. I needed to get rid of change! I need to get rid of a lot more than just change though, and that is what is making life a little miserable for me. I realize that I have too much "stuff" and that some of it will have to be donated, thrown out, or stored in order to make room for my fiance's stuff. Thankfully I have not yet moved all of my "stuff" out of my parents house, so I can take my time sorting through it an making the changes I need to my ownerships.

In other news on the moving/change front. The move went well, and by well I mean that I moved in in mid July, only to move back to MD for a week. One of Nick's family members commit suicide and we went to services in Philadelphia. (We also heard today that another member of Nick's extended family accidentally shot himself recently, so there is a lot of that hanging on my mind.) Thankfully, things started to turn upwards as the weeks past and I was able to move back for good this time to NY. However internet was a luxury that I simply did not have unless I walked to the local library, and I found myself too busy most days to enjoy that luxury. I did get to send some notification out that I existed, but sadly not to the blogs.

Now though, I have my internet back, and am working furiously on my resume, or at least attempting it. I am finding myself without ambition and not wanting to have a job. I don't really want to DO anything. I want to take pictures. That's all I have been doing in my "free time" and I find it relaxing. I puttered today and realized that if I could do what I really wanted, I would go back to school for photography and business and I would start up a business in photography. I would kick ass in it, learn all the techniques I need to master, and boot all of the mediocre photographers out of CNY. Until the day that that happens I will probably be stuck wishing I had never taken a single psychology course in my life and regretting the time I spent in the classroom on what I deem a worthless degree.

So for your viewing pleasure and as a welcome back gift to all of you here are some of my putterings: Keller, a bee on a globe thistle, my favorite Dahlia, My engagement ring, and the rain that plagues NY.