Fetal Position

I feel like I have been kicked in the gut repeatedly.

Possibly because I unpacked all of our belongings by myself in order to make life easier for Nick. He is really stressed about not being around me for the rest of the time we are down here, and I am getting stressed about how much is going to be expected of me. As it is I have taken Nick's sister under my wing and she is following me around like a lost puppy.

She has this idea in her head that as long as she sticks with me, everything will be fine. She is afraid for her aunt and I think she somehow thinks I can miraculously get her aunt out of the situation. I can't though. I can't force someone out of a bad situation, and I know that one day she will understand, but sooner than that day she will hold it against me if something happens. She doesn't understand free will yet, and I think she has this idea that life is able to be picked up and dragged off, but she doesn't see how sometimes it is just not that simple.

I finally talked to my mother after far too long, and I think she had a small heart attack when she heard my voice. Her, and everyone else in my family assumed I was in the hospital and that Nick's uncle had attacked me. My mother offered to come get me, and told me if he touched me I should press charges. I ensured them all that he didn't touch me for what I can recall, but I wish that he had so I could have a reason to put him in jail that was more solid that his borderline alcoholism and prescription drug use. My mother is stilll scared even though I told her I was in a safe haven. She won't be satisfied till I am home.

In fact my mother has gone above and beyond to make sure that I have a great birthday after this. My cousins will be coming to see me, and I haven't spent real time with them since one day last summer. My mother also has plans to keep me occupied, until then I have to decide what kind of cake to suprise Nick's brother and sister with on their birthday. June 13th is their birthday and last year I made ice cream cake, but I don't have it in my to do a double decker this year. I am thinking I need to do something fun, but my creative juices have stopped flowing.